Dear Kurt, 

This letter's style is not what you're used to receive from me. However, there are some thoughts I really need to put into words. I'll try my best to explain myself.

Today I went planting potatoes with my parents and my grandfather. As I was doing what I was asked, I started thinking about the mechanism of planting it and, as odd as randomness will allow it to be, I saw some kind of connection between it and life itself. 

This is the machine used to plant potatoes: 

All it requires is to put one piece of potato in each space. Then the blue engine spins around and each piece falls in the whole directly to the ground. Easy, you see? How can this illustrate life? Well, this may not make sense, but to me it seemed plausible. 

It's the driver of the tractor that makes the engine go around. And we are the ones who put the potatoes. You see, we can see this metaphor starting. Imagine this machine as a life. This circle. We are the ones in charge of our life and the rule is to keep moving. To keep adding our potatoe. Always. Til the end. Stopping is not an option. However we can only move because someone interacts with us. The driver represents everyone we find support in. 

The ideal is to put only a potato in each space. If you put two or more, they will fall in the same place and won't have enough space to grow. But there are sometimes when we, for mistake, put more than a potato in each space. This represent our life mistakes. I guess you're thinking the obvious option is to take the potato out before it falls. Well, but this blue engine that goes round can cut your fingers as it spins fast. 

And here I found another similarity with life. When we make a mistake we have two options: to let it be, and so the extra potato drops and in that space they won't grow or you try to take the potato out, facing the risk. If you decide to take the risk, the consequences may be to solve the problem by succeeding in life, represented by taking the extra potato, or to get hurt by trying to take it out, and this is when you fail in life at solving some problem.

I faced some other case. There was a circumstance in which I tried to take the potato. And I got a bit hurt in a nail. I hadn't any cut. It was just a brief pain. In life, I think these are those moments when we try hard enough and still we can't succeed. This hurt nail represent the usual signs life gives us telling us it's better to let go for the simple reason that it's not worth the pain it's causing.

When trying to remove the extra potato there was still another case I found myself going through. There was a moment when I was carefully trying to remove a potato and, when I realized, there were to many empty spaces almost close to the whole that I just couldn't speed up to fill. This represents those situations in life when we don't understand what is priority and what is secondary. When this happens, we end up causing more damage than it would had turned out to be, just because we were paying attention to the wrong spaces to fill.

Finally, when we run out of potatoes it means that our job is done. Then the faithful farmer waits for it's culture to grow. There's a cycle that ended. It's time to start a new one. The same happens with us, humans. When we run out of potatoes, we run out of life. It's time for this cycle to end. All we can hope is that the potatoes we planted through life were worth it. And so the cycle ends. An a new one starts. I don't believe in resurrection. But I believe that we are energy. When we die, we turn into another form of energy. That's the beginning of our new cycle. 

And that's it, Kurt. For as weird as it seem of me to think about this by looking to a planting machine, I guess it made a lot of sense to me; I think I'm going to remember this lesson I gave myself through life, hoping for it to be valuable.

I hope these thoughts are clear enough to be understood. Not doubting your intelligence. It's just that sometimes there are just too many things in my mind I can't really express properly.

Thank you always for listening. As I always say, I know you're there. I have to believe so. 

«Peace, love, empathy.»