Dear Kurt, 

As I told you yesterday, I feel things are getting bad again. And this is not what I want. So, as a sudden thought came, I decided I had to make a few changes. Some temporary, some others to maintain as long as I can. I don't really know why this is happening again. I know somethings are highly contributing to this state of mind and those are where I'm going to start operating a change. 

I can't concentrate in studying. But I know this is not because I'm careless about school. It's because of this feelings I've been having. I won't force it, though. I'll try to make things better, to feel better and so, maybe, I'll get my motivation back.

I made a list. You know I have this huge need to make lists, to write things down. I don't know, it just seems like some kind of commitment. You know what words mean to me. 

So, here it is:

• Temporarily avoid social networks to increase connection with people in real life. 
• Listen to music is a good therapy. But it won't help me if I use it to avoid contact with people. 
• Be selective towards the music I listen. Good musics don't have to necessarily talk about sadness and drama. 
• Don't romanticize sadness and dumbness. There may be beauty in sadness, but there's beauty in many other things too.
• Exercise. Running more than I do. 
• Say no when it's no and yes when it's yes.
• Don't lie. Even if I don't feel like saying it. Speak my mind.
• Going outside more often. I have a private garden that allows me to feel comfortable and appreciate nature.
• Photography. Interesting things can be found if we pay enough attention. 
• Avoid complaining as much as I can.
• Smile more to people. Even if I'm not in a good mood. Just smile.
• Treat people as they deserve to be treated, not as my mood makes me want to.
• Meditate more. As my instructor told me, those who know the true way have the responsibility to make use of it.
• Take care of myself. Don't allow me to feel uncomfortable if I can choose not to.
• Set priorities. For real. This is what I should work harder on.
• Don't take this all too seriously. It's okay if I fail to attempt some of these things. There's no obligation. Just the need to try.

Thank you, Kurt. As always.

«Peace, love, empathy.»